Cheap Grins

This heart is not invincible 

It's a diamond made of glass

Reassembled by your kisses

And broken by your glance

The fate of love is vengeance 

The fate of life is death

What's the point of loving

Yet hate lays waste to my soul

Will the message be received 

And will there be an answer

The questions in the letter

Pale to the questions in my head

2 Souls

 The sword pierces the heart 

Cutting the cord of the soul

The pain is hardly felt

The one who strikes is in turmoil

Insomnia sets in one night

Paranoia and self loathing

A lone rat in a tunnel of fear

The murderer severs his own silver

They meet again in atmic 

They embrace each other there

Not a drop of hate between them

Only love, forgiveness, and peace

   

The Giant

They manipulate the giant

He submits to the illusion

Realization could be his savior

But he is too blinded to view it

The giant is their weapon

False glory fuels the machine

The giant considers himself good

Because that's what the liars preach

Enslaved the giant produces

If he dies there are other giants

He thinks he's gaining status

He'll die without acknowledgment 

Forgive

Forgive

Let go of the chains that bind you

Experience peace

Only forgiveness brings freedom

Thanksgiving

Thank the oxygen

It constantly saves your life

The guide of your meditation 

Bringing you to realization 

Thank the water

The fluid of your life

Fueling your internal engine

The true blood of the soul

Thank the sun

Keeping you from freezing

Providing you with air and drink

The reason you exist

Wink

Stop and smell the roses

Before they rest above your head

And when the loved one leaves

They'll blow away in the wind

Appreciate the oxygen

Before they feed it to you

The only thing that's free

Powerful men breathe too

Embrace your lover

Focus only on the fire

Feel the energy around you

For it is truly beautiful 

 

EDSM

Desperate men walk the earth

Murder for insignificant objects

Stepping on brothers to no avail

End the cycle or be dragged by the horse 

3 L's

Light .

Did you ever exist?

Are you just a tale told by strangers?

I am blinded by greeds dark vale.

Love.

I feel you flow through me.

You are as gentle as a mothers touch,

Yet as strong as a challenged lion.

It's as though we just are.

No explanation or divine plan.

Blind cannot lead the blind.

Sharp tongues pierce your fate.

Look.

Do you not see the tarnished beauty?

Can you not comprehend eternity?

There is no evil to fear.

When

When pain replaces pain

Relief is seen as peace

Your death brings them profit

Equal is truth but they deny it

When the name is the footprint 

Along with strangled tales of glory

Parasites feed on the carcass 

Bringing temporal nothings 

When will they forsake us

Rule amongst themselves 

The lie is that you need them

That lie keeps their authority in place

Snake Handlers

Stay strong as we pass through hell

Look demons in the eyes everyday

Don't pass your pain to your brother

It will only grow into a fortress

Don't judge the actions of the weak

They keep them from disappearing

Comfort those who've fallen down

Be the net that catches the failures

Exodus

Remove the poison from my vains

I don't want to be like them

Lies rest inside my thoughts

Guiding me down dark paths

Forsake the fools wearing crowns

Find peace where it can be found

The world hates it's inhabitants 

Masters hand has been bitten

Through

Walk through me

Fodder for the ego

Question my reality

While you exist in fantasy

Cain

You can't feel what they do

Your the one who cuts

Hateful words build the smile

No real man among men

Abel's death cursed mankind

Cain walks among the masses

Gnawing the heels of the brave

Until they dig their own grave

No kindness left in the world

The only good acts are in fear

You obsess over manners

Your sadistic ignorant formalities

Celebrating a murderer 

Kill behind a desk

Cain's spirit roams the earth

Feasting on the flesh of fools  

Escape

The Hippocrates are guilty

Die inside a tunnel

Break through the wall

Live outside the path

Flee the field 

Don't drop the ball

The bullet tempts the target

Escape while you can

Walls

I hear the hate in your voice

I see the pain in your eyes

I sense your restless soul

The smile hides nothing

Empty words hold much meaning

Chase the flesh

Yet you neglect your own

Momentary release is impermanent 

Humor screams tortured

Accomplishments of illusion

Power holds no ecstasy

Learn to love yourself

Parable of The Lone Wolf

Tranquility among wolves

The alpha is insecure

Forsake the pack 

Follow the heart

The den is invaded

The pups blood on the walls

The alpha is a tyrant

Stragglers seek the lone wolf

Challenge the alpha

The stragglers cry

The lone wolf replies

Forsake the alpha

A new pack is born

The alpha starves 

Lone wolf the savior

Tranquility among wolves

Dream

First they make you feel special

Then they alter your words

The cultists cut off your fingers

Now you feel you belong

Programming us in our sleep

Our dreams no longer peaceful

Total control is the agenda

Wake up before life ceases

Man take me off of this planet

Cry to illusions of power

Let me rest in your chambers

The slaves of the clock march on

Now

The futures grip is present

Clouding our meditation 

The body is at rest

Yet the mind is exhausted 

Anxious lies encircle 

They are nails holding on

Reach beyond illusion

Grasp peace of mind

Delete the nobles program

Step outside the cage

Embrace your captors

Confusion on their faces

Ironys In Blood

Miracles make crosses

Change attracts lead

Karma betrays the righteous 

Break the chains of death

Sinners preach in fear

Hippocrates point the finger

Competition consumes us

Awaken before it's too late 

Alien

Alien

Foreigner to this planet

Stand for those stepped on

The fist of love crushes armies

Alien

Different from the masses

Unconformer with ideals

A rebel with morales

Alien

Left to die in a crowd of demons

Angels bandage his wounds 

Face the mob with confidence

Breaking Free/Passing Through

Chase your tails until you faint

Bark until your speech has receded 

Live yesterday tomorrow

A misleading sign holds no benefit

The eyes of men are that of beasts

The enemy is not external

You pass through the hall

But do not look inside the doors

Compassion can save the world

Forgiveness holds the key to the cell

Will you live to rule the world

Or pass through the yolk and shell

You

What is love?

What is happiness?

If you tell me you know

How many other things have you lied to yourself about?

You talk too much of peace

You act too much on greed

impenetrable love

Is not what you seek

Pleasures of flesh

Basic human needs

At last full filled

This is mandatory, not a pleasure.

Smile outside your home 

That way predators pass

Sadness makes a victim?

But a victim of victims

Realize

Eat in front of a starving child

Laugh in front of an angry mob

Naive capitalist fools

Consuming cannibals

Shallow graves for shallow men

Yet I don't hold it against you

Lied to by elite con men

We might be friends in another life

Wealthy fat suits

Can you feel the pain of the single mom

Trying to feed her kids

While they cry for toys she can't afford

Stranger

Do the walls scream at you as well?

Do people pass by you and stare?

How can you mistreat others?

Your expression slices into my heart.

Smile

Under the influence 

Above the law

A glance of perception 

A glance of judgement 

Charity given by the sons of poor men

Sons of rich men what do you perceive

No one is rich and no one is poor

Some own paper and others own more

Foolish monkeys fall in line

Don't step outside less you be shunned

Shunned by who?

The group you didn't desire?

Wake up before the finale

Learn to sleep and love your spirit

Smile softly and love fiercely 

See beyond heaven and read the truth

Parable of the Worm

Lied to by others

Lie to yourself

Lie to others

Lie in false comfort

Stained by society

The man becomes a worm

Dreaming of love and life

The worm becomes an eagle

The eagle is killed through greed

Fill the bellies of self righteous fools

The worms are then stepped on

The culprit himself not worthy of death

Fill your minds

Fill your hearts

Fill your pitchers

Fill them all to the brim with truth

Humanity

Humanity

Seeking peace with bloodthirsty claws

Greedy morsels scraping desperately 

Lost souls creating false meaning

Humanity

Omnivorous hypocrites grinding teeth

Showing so-called love for selfish desires

Standing on the shoulders of others smiling 

Humanity

Destroying itself in a sedge for happiness 

Duality finds shelter in the hearts of weak minds

If you couldn't find peace in yourself, then what makes you think the liars hold it captive in chains of gold?  

Dry Wall

Scars don't go away

Skeletons speak through silence

Still we continue to ignore

Fall from grace into the dirt

Survive

Cut the head of the snake

Burry the elders with their ways

Mend the wounds of the broken

Only then can we survive 

Quit chasing the earth that's beneath

Care for the children unconditioned

Cast judgement on nothing

Only then can we survive

Point the finger at yourself

Relax and just breathe

Lie on a hammock and love

Only then can we survive

OBE

The galactic alignment was parallel with my soul. 
I could feel a rush of energy flowing freely through my spine. 
Everything around me seemed to glow different colors. 
My fear was suppressed by overwhelming curiosity. 
I left my body and looked back as if I was a mirror. 
I hated what I saw and I didn’t want to return. 
In a fraction of a blink of an eye I was void of all consciousness. 
I was surrounded by nothing. 
It wasn’t blackness and I wasn’t even there. 
I cried and screamed looking for something, anything. 
I reached out my soul and was captured in a tunnel of light. 
Next thing I know I’m standing in a meadow. 
I’m surrounded by souls and there is an undying love in the atmosphere. 
It was so beautiful yet I could feel a shadow staring from behind me. 
I saw a man and made eye contact with him. 
Then the shadow instantly faded and I could feel peace. 
I approached the man and thanked him for what he had done. 
Then the man smiled and said “I am God”. 
I felt a power unimaginable and my words can only explain so much. 
I asked the man “What is this place?” 
He did not respond. 
All he said was “Go back”. 
I woke up back in my room and didn’t know what to think. 
Was that a dream? 
Was that really God? 

Are You Better?

Are you better?

The answer is of course no

But how could you know

The crude liers feed you thoughts

They confirm your superiority

The lion doesn't descriminate

To him we are the same

Well...I taste better

The Diamond

Worn as a symbol

Placed on display

It hated itself

But didn't know the words to say

The Tale of Two

Born destined for greatness.

Hardened by the clash of steel.

Burdened by a haunted past.

Surviving only through sheer will.

Two forces meet on the battlefield.

Prepared to die, yet yearning to live.

Blood covers the earth below.

Silence falls on the future of men.

Meditation

Ice races through my bones

Waves flow around my skin

Eyes fall back into the abyss

Feel the drum of this heart

Value this moment alone

Forgive the sword that cut you

Heal the broken peices 

Smile for you are truly alive

Breathe into the souls core

Feel the energy wrap around you

Surrounded by love and warmth

Vibrations feature peace

Never Over

Eternity never ending

Forever breathing life

Smiles from every soul

Comfort from every sight

No more fight or flight

No greed in existence 

We have no reason for war

One knowing between us

Ants arguing about height

You atoms shedding blood

Stars above laugh at you

When will we grow up

Forgotten

Death to dust

Forgotten

Greatness to ground

Forgotten 

Slave to soil 

Forgotten

Breath to bone

Forgotten 

Land

Land of hidden desires

Land of pointless conflict 

This land was formed on blood

Cursed for a thousand years

The Fox

Deny the fox

Crafty as ever

He'll cut out your heart

And you'll say thank you

Feeding the fox

Deceiving the sheep

Rewarded graciously

No beating today

Kill the fox

Notice the sun

Speak to the stars

Let us begin

Spilt blood

I'm unimpressive as I am

I'm lazy and unexciting

I want to love a woman

But I'll die if I change myself

I try to be the cool guy

It's easy to pull off

But it tears my insides open

And the reward isn't worth this

Love me for who I am

Bitter words cut my soul

Silence my thoughts

Meditative woman

I won't try to change you

Would you date a rock?

Lazy and content in the now

And always right here for you

Gravity

I hate you gravity

Invisible chain

I need you to live

But a life in vain

I want to fly

Realize true freedom

Go beyond all

To the end of space

Hurt me

Burn my flesh

Consume my soul

Step on my heart

Forget I existed

I don't need flesh

You'd choke on my soul

My hearts too strong to crack

I don't exist 

If I Were King

If I were King

People would get along well

There would be no war

No taxes, death, hell

Just death, hell

The World is Lost

The world is lost

The starlight can not guide it

The currents of time slam against its bow

Even man lack the will to turn its rudder

The World is lost

Brother strikes brother

Amidst chaos and a dark sky

Are you all this blind?

18

Feels like yesterday

The earth chases it's tail

We chase our deaths

Speedy as a snail

Love is eternal

Permanent in every way

Chase your tail tomarrow 

Find love today

Authority

Invisible chains

Manipulate the brains

of everyone around me

Teachers yelling "Crown me"

You don't determine the future

and i am not a loser

I'll gladly serve detention

but first answer my question

Where

did you get your authority?

What makes?

What makes a man?

Is it how many women you can fuck over?

Is it how many pieces of paper are in your bank account?

Is it how much you know about automobiles?

What makes a woman?

Is it how much you can make a guy want to fuck you?

Is it how much bullshit you can take from others?

Is it how fake you can present yourself to society?

The Tale of Two Brothers

There were two brothers

They killed each other

Their mothers wept

Their fathers failed

Almost all their children died

Abandoned and bare

Cousins fought each other

Killing over mere possessions

Lost and unguided

They perished 

Feed on Lies

The biggest lie you were ever told

Is that your body is to be sold

Service others to feed illusion

When will we grow to say “enough?”

Paper defines the hearts of men

Lies from the greedy fools above

Conditions are strings of weakness

Desperation is the voice of pain

Peace

Peace.

Anarchy.

Brothers.

Enemies of Law.

Peace.

Death.

Family.

Reasons to Live.

Peace.

True Peace.

You can’t find it.

You already have it.

Break Chains

Why can’t we all share?

What part of this being needs to work to live?

Authority is man made bullshit.

Tell the jailer to fuck off!

Down by the Lake

The smooth rock skips

Fish takeoff to catch bugs

Trees give shelter to squirrels

Down by the Lake

The waters cool and refreshing

The rocks and mud form banks

The smoke clouds smile back

Down by the Lake

Tadpoles grow into bodies

Can you hear the crickets?

Can you count the stars?

Down by the Lake

You Are

Look at what we label society.

Now look at the stars.

Can you hear what they are saying?

They whisper "You don't matter."

Worry yourselves with make believe.

This play we call life.

You have no "purpose".

You are.

Why do you kill that which is different?

Have you ever spoke to wild grass?

It hears your thoughts.

They whisper "You don't matter."

Play your game children.

In the end it goes away.

You must realize.

You are.

Mutilated Mind

Fear overwhelms the soul.

Chains imprison the mind.

What is the end of the line?

Detour comforts the train.

The risk holds hostage love.

Maniac masks on a good heart.

No peace for the enlightened.

Burry them in a fools grave.

Stones fly at both groups sinners.

Death comes like their birth.

Illusion fuels the machine.

Where is the heart of men?

Anyone else scarred shitless of death?

  Normally I like to think I have a good handle on things.  I enjoy my life and try to just be thankful for everything and everyone I come across.  Well I have a dark secret.  I'm scarred to die.  Sounds silly right.  It's like being afraid of heights so you don't ride the big roller coasters.  The only problem is I'm stuck and I have no choice but to ride.  I know I shouldn't complain, after all, we all have to ride in the front seat on this one.  It just seems so scary and mysterious.  I ain't scarred of snakes, spiders, the dark, other people, or anything really.  This death thing though.  It scares the bejeezus out of me (no pun intended).  I grew up a christian and i've always heard since birth, "if your a good boy you go to heaven, but if your a bad boy, you'll get a bunch of pussy and respect, oh, and you'll burn in a lake of fire for all eternity!"  No offense to all you christians but that's fucked up!  I do beleive in Jesus, because out of that whole big book that was implanted in my skull, his words are really the only thing with meaning.  Christianity aside, I know some people believe in reincarnation.  That would be awesome!  Like playing Donkey Kong Country on the SNES with the 50 life cheat active(gamer metaphor for bhuddists, how you like me now?).  I am confused about how the soul moves to another body and all that other shit, but it's more relaxing than watching porno while fantasizing lakes of sulfer.  What if nothing happens?!!  That's a scary thought!  We all will have to face death so i guess my best advise is NIKE, just do it!(total sarcasm btw)

Dreamin

Dreamin of the sand and the water

Stop by and say hi if you can

I’ll be right here wastin my life

Cuz I aint made a very good man

She left me for greener grasses

I left her for bottled liquor

I hope she finds what she wants

Love a smile in front of the trigger

Daydreamin again I’m sorry

I aint a violent kind a man

It’s time to get back to wastin

The rest of my life by the water and sand

Regardless

Death will come regardless.

What’s after is what I fear.

Will I burn in hell forever,

Or be with God a thousand years?

Will I sing in a band of demons,

Or be in the holy choir?

Will I repent at the feet of God,

Or will he call me a liar?

Can you get kicked out of heaven?

Can you make it out of hell?

Could someone kill the devil?

Is God like what the bible tells?

Regardless of where I go,

I’m a make the best of my stay.

I’ll walk those streets of gold,

Or I’ll burn until I’m grey. 

Blood

 Two hearts beat as one

Burn right through the sun

Consequence steps on blood

Nothing we can do but run

Passion like a mother bear

Rivers of blood from care

Two with nothing left to share

Faith that heavens up there

Painful Truths of The Universe (Prose by Joe)

Countless planes sift through unconsciousness. 
Questions and fear are the only things present. 
Spirits, angels, demons, labels from humans. 
What is the truth? 
Don't respond for I'm too scarred of the answer. 
What if death is the end? 
I'm not paranoid, I'm dying inside because of inevitability. 
Everything we know was created by man. 
Therefore we know nothing. 
We are foolish. We are fools. We've been fooled! 
I will become the most magnificent being. 
Determination isn't the word for this hunger of knowledge. 
I will conquer death. 
The enemy of anything imaginable. 
or am i a fool? 

Should Mary Jane Be Legal?

  When gay marrige was on the ballot i can remember the reoccurring argument that "It's there buisness what they do in private."  Shouldn't the same argument be valid as far as weed is concerned.  Why do we concern ourselves in matters that don't concern us?  Who am I to tell a man he can't take it in his butt?  Who am I to lock someone up for smoking a joint?  Marijuana don't kill you and it's illeagal.  Cigerretes, msg, and guns kill people.  All of which are legal by the way.  Whats more dangerous?  A doobie or a pistol?  Sandy Hook wasn't the work of a pothead.  Also, the "WAR" on drugs is the most retarded concept i've ever heard of.  That's like if christians went around locking up anyone who sinned.  It's a lost cause.  I'll admit that i used to smoke weed.  I thought being sober would change my opinion on the legality of this drug.  To my suprise it's been exactly the opposite.  I just see more of the stupidity of the issues that "fuel" our politicians and corperate puppets.  Judgement.  It's like poison.

Leave Miley Alone!

  She came in like a wrecking ball, literally and figurativly.  Does anyone remember brittany Spears, Lindsey Lohan, and that other spoiled cunt who found her way into fame by sucking off anyone with a camera in one of her daddys hotel rooms.  Why does it seem that the only celebrity chicks that go psycho in the public eye are the ones i have a crush on.  When i was a kid i remember watching parent trap and thinking, "wow, that girl is so hot."  Well now i think i might have a chance with her if she stays out of rehab long enough to go on a date.  Shit, she made me give a shit about herbee!  That's an acomplishment.  Then you have my first crush ever.  I was in 1st grade and i was listening to a beutiful girl sing "oops I did it again!"  Did i know what it meant?  No.  Did i care?  No.  Well next thing i know the only thing more important than the war in iraq is a bald celebrity!  Now with all this stuff in syria going on i get on youtube and go to most popular videos, assuming to see the speech our president gave right there.  Nope.  Guess what i get?  A picture of a naked post-disney channel Miley Cyrus crying.  To be fair, the presidents speech was on there too but it didn't even have nearly as many views.  All aside though,  we shouldn't judge celebritys, friends, co-workers, or anyone for that matter.  I do it all the time and it's hard not to do, but i feel better when i don't.  We can't change other people but we can change ourselves.  Thanks for reading.

Is there more?

  Sometimes i like to sit and just think about the world, the universe, humanity, and well reality itself.  lately I've been thinking about the question "is there more?".  Ever since i was a little kid I've had a closet affair with star wars, superheros, Pokemon, and any anime with people who have special powers.  Okay i admit i am a geek inside, no need to chain me to a pole and pelt me with rocks.  This next term will seem miserably cliche but i feel the need to express it. Here go's. "Everyone thought the earth was flat, but Columbus said it was round."  Hey at least i warned ya.  As long as i can remember people have always categorized superpowers, psychics, supernatural phenomena, and anything else that isn't taught either in school or the bible as, Pen and Teller said it best, that's right, Bullshit!  It's like humanity is scarred of anything that is foreign to our brief 9-5 existence on this ball of a mineral we label Earth.  I do not follow in any ones footsteps except for those who actually made a difference(and no, writing a new age book of recycled mumbo jumbo, or a christian self help program with more words than the bible, doesn't count).  It seems we as humans are quick to accept any thought or action of those in power over us as the gospel of bob.  It probably has something to do with survival and the fact that if in prehistoric times, your uncle was fucking with a saber tooth and got his head ripped off and your father told you to be weary of such mistakes...well it was probably those that did that got to grow old enough to reproduce with the most beautiful hairy ass females and sew the seeds of the capitalism praising, celebrity worshiping, resource consumers that we refer to as modern man.  I'm not pointing fingers because we all fall short of the glory of Steve Jobs.  Regardless of why we think we got it all down pat and ready to profit.  Is there more?  The answer is yes, but only if someone has the balls to tell pop culture and society to go fuck itself.  I know there are things our minds and body's are capable of doing that would force Pen and Teller to repent to the almighty bull that shat us all out.  Bad metaphor?  okay I'm sorry for that one.  My point is that a new era of discovery is upon us. In the words of Patrick Star "We have the technology!"

homeschool is boring but awesome

well i started homeschool this year because i just couldnt go another day to regular school.  SA is a bitch.  i do k12 now and its a lot less stressful.  i still keep in touch with my friends.  one reason i left regular school is because i cussed out the bus driver and got kicked off the bus and theres no way i could find a ride to school everyday.  thats besides the point though.  anyways i'm downloading some map packs for battlefield 3.  end game looks pretty sweet so i cant wait to play that.  the song of the day is radioactive by imagine dragons. have a great day.

1st post on blog, mainly me rambling on

Today i went out and bought battlefield 3.  its fun but it feels like i die every time i get a kill:P in other news:  i've been studying meditation and im getting pretty good at it.  my shoulders killing me.  i think i pulled it working.  the song of the day is pills i took by hank3.  even though im drug free now, and im staying out of trouble, the rebel inside me grows bored and restless.  i know todays post was pretty random and all over the place but im not sure what direction i want to go with this blog.  i'm interested in gaming and spirituality and human behavior.  my typing looks like the work of a 5th grader(that might be a little generous).  i've tryed to start blogs before but i have a hard time sticking with stuff.  i'm hoping to get over that and start bloging everyday.  i want to post links to videos in the future, also interesting posts and pics as well.  i'm looking into colleges but my gpa is as bad as my grammer.  i'm optimistic though so i know something will make itself known soon.  i used to wrestle from 7th-10th grade and then i got cought up in drugs and partying among other things.  i had a nervous breakdown.  i still struggle with social anxiety and one of my dreams is to help people with mental illness and become a psychologist.  i also want to live in california someday.  a lot of times i'll come off as stuck upish to people, when really i just get too anxious to talk to people i don't know.  i appericiate anyone who's taken the time to read this post and i wish you well today at whatever you do.  i want to help people and i like to entertain so i'm gonna find my path and try hard at it from now on.